Musings From the Dark Side

Yesterday I wrote a very negative post, which I'm sure wasn't a pleasant read. Sorry about that. Today, however, is a new day, and I'm happy to say that I've gained a bit of perspective on my situation from two sources. One was my dear friend, and the other was Heidi Priebe, MBTI specialist and one of my favorite writers in the world. Here's a quote from Ms. Priebe's brilliant article : "Fuck wondering why anyone would love you. That's a goddamned stupid question to be asking. Start asking, 'What do I love? What am I searching for? What makes me so excited to be alive that joy shines straight out my asshole every time I engage with it?' And then chase that thing, with everything you're worth. The people who love you will follow." This was exactly what I needed to read. You see, one of my greatest fears is to be alone and unloved. I am so desperate not to be that way that everything in my life feeds into that fear, and the ironic thin...

I'm not feeling great today. I feel like I'm drifting, and that's never good. It feels like a step backward. This is how I used to be. I should be moving forward, but I'm not. Thing is, my life seems to be long stretches of suffering punctuated by fleeting moments of happiness. Case in point: I got my Buffy and Faith Funko Pops in the mail yesterday. Yay! That was cool and joyful and fun. However, I missed an appointment with my therapist, and I really need to talk about some things that have been going on. One feeling was entirely too short-lived, while the other left me feeling all too irritated through the entire day. Thing is, I know what I have to do to fix my situation. I know that I need to move on with my life. I want to travel, exercise more (after my back heals up), and save more money so I can really do what I want. I know this is the solution. This was my only source of joy . So why am I not making it happen? What's holding me back? I feel ...

By Keona Tang Well, it has been a while, so I thought I'd post my thoughts about a couple of things that have captured my attention of late... There are people in my life who mean more to me than anyone in the world, and many of them happen to be women. For example, my best friend is a woman who inspires me to continue writing, to learn more about myself, and become a better person. She's a fantastic writer herself (she's the lead writer for an amazing website called Personality Growth ), and my favorite person on the planet. To me, she's the embodiment of Wonder Woman: someone who is passionate and strong and feisty, but also kindhearted, caring, supportive, and generous. She has a lovely soul, and we communicate with each other everyday. I'm so proud of her, and I appreciate everything she has ever done for me. Thanks, Kirsten. Now, let's discuss Gal Gadot and Patty Jenkins' incredible Wonder Woman movie. Never in a million years would I have thou...

Well, another E3 has come and gone, and with it, the time-honored tradition of planting my ass in front of a screen (TV, phone, or tablet, I'm not picky) and watching a bunch of people talk to another bunch of people about said slices of interactive entertainment. Ah, yes, 'twas indeed the best of times, as Dickens may have said. But enough chatter and bad comedy, let's talk about games! Specifically, those which have lay claim to my imagination based on what I've seen and heard about them. I'm going to limit my choices to ten, unless you want this post to be an infinite one. Here goes... 10. Call of Cthulhu I'm not much of a horror gamer, to be honest. I find the generally slow pacing and sometimes irritating control schemes to be kind of dull. In the case of Focus Entertainment's upcoming fright-fest, however, that may change. Featuring a creepy atmosphere replete with demonic pictures that seem to come alive as your character passes by them and,...

The first official day of E3 2017 began with a 25-minute presentation by Nintendo, who announced a slew of titles including Metroid Prime 4, Fire Emblem Warriors, new Zelda: Breath of the Wild DLC, the next installments in the Yoshi and Kirby franchises, a new Metroid game for the 3DS (which is actually a remake of Metroid 2), and a new core Pokemon RPG for the Switch. In addition, Rocket League will be releasing this holiday season for Nintendo's latest system, and will feature platform-specific content and cross-platform play, which is always a plus. They also provided us with trailers for Xenoblade Chronicles 2, Arms, Splatoon 2, Pokken Tournament DX, and Super Mario Odyssey, which releases on Oct. 27, and features a variety of interesting environments for Mario to explore. Xenoblade 2 looked very interesting, and a bit impenetrable to anyone who hasn't played the first game in the series. Still, it's got good visuals, tried and true JRPG gameplay, nice music, and a...

Sony's media showcase began with an interesting musical performance, some game footage, an appearance by Shawn Layden, more game footage, another appearance, then more game footage. It was mercifully short on developer banter or cringeworthy moments. On the flipside, it was also short on surprises. There was no presentation of the Last of Us 2, which was something I was hoping to see. No mention or tease of a new Bloodborne game. No shocking resurrection of a long-dormant first-party title like SOCOM or even something like Syphon Filter (remember those games?). Instead, we saw an expansion for Horizon: Zero Dawn called the Frozen Wilds, an expansion for Uncharted 4 called the Lost Legacy (revealed at PlayStation Experience last fall), and, finally, a full remake of Shadow of the Colossus. Wait, what? Okay, that's interesting, and the other two expansion trailers held their own, don't get me wrong. But SotC was closer to what I wanted out of Sony's presser. It ...