Musings From the Dark Side

By Keona Tang So I've been thinking about where my life is leading me these days, and I've come to a conclusion. One of the keys to being happy is to set attainable goals for myself. I should aim for the things that are within reach, not things I can't control. For me, this realization is a bit of a breakthrough, because setting goals for myself has always been something I've kind of sucked at. You see, I'm not an overly patient person. When I see something I want, I usually just grab it or buy it. This tendency explains my Funko Pop collection, as well as my impulse purchases of digital movies almost every week. I mean, I don't think I go *too* overboard, but at the same time, if I'm trying to save money, well... I admit, I'm not exactly great at it. Something to improve upon.  Anyway, back to setting goals. When I was growing up, I hated certain aspects of school. Learning was wonderful and all, but homework and things like book reports suck...

Yesterday I wrote a very negative post, which I'm sure wasn't a pleasant read. Sorry about that. Today, however, is a new day, and I'm happy to say that I've gained a bit of perspective on my situation from two sources. One was my dear friend, and the other was Heidi Priebe, MBTI specialist and one of my favorite writers in the world. Here's a quote from Ms. Priebe's brilliant article : "Fuck wondering why anyone would love you. That's a goddamned stupid question to be asking. Start asking, 'What do I love? What am I searching for? What makes me so excited to be alive that joy shines straight out my asshole every time I engage with it?' And then chase that thing, with everything you're worth. The people who love you will follow." This was exactly what I needed to read. You see, one of my greatest fears is to be alone and unloved. I am so desperate not to be that way that everything in my life feeds into that fear, and the ironic thin...

I'm not feeling great today. I feel like I'm drifting, and that's never good. It feels like a step backward. This is how I used to be. I should be moving forward, but I'm not. Thing is, my life seems to be long stretches of suffering punctuated by fleeting moments of happiness. Case in point: I got my Buffy and Faith Funko Pops in the mail yesterday. Yay! That was cool and joyful and fun. However, I missed an appointment with my therapist, and I really need to talk about some things that have been going on. One feeling was entirely too short-lived, while the other left me feeling all too irritated through the entire day. Thing is, I know what I have to do to fix my situation. I know that I need to move on with my life. I want to travel, exercise more (after my back heals up), and save more money so I can really do what I want. I know this is the solution. This was my only source of joy . So why am I not making it happen? What's holding me back? I feel ...

By Keona Tang Well, it has been a while, so I thought I'd post my thoughts about a couple of things that have captured my attention of late... There are people in my life who mean more to me than anyone in the world, and many of them happen to be women. For example, my best friend is a woman who inspires me to continue writing, to learn more about myself, and become a better person. She's a fantastic writer herself (she's the lead writer for an amazing website called Personality Growth ), and my favorite person on the planet. To me, she's the embodiment of Wonder Woman: someone who is passionate and strong and feisty, but also kindhearted, caring, supportive, and generous. She has a lovely soul, and we communicate with each other everyday. I'm so proud of her, and I appreciate everything she has ever done for me. Thanks, Kirsten. Now, let's discuss Gal Gadot and Patty Jenkins' incredible Wonder Woman movie. Never in a million years would I have thou...